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so i havent updated in a few weeks. not much has been going on.

we got new classes last week. which is pretty cool i suppose.

im really enjoying the fact i dont have a 5th period and can go home at 130 for the rest of the year.

but then when i get home i have nothing to do because, well everyone is still in school. so its a bad yet good thing.

graduation is coming close, less then 3 months, its really exciting yet scary at the same time. i cant imagine me yet HALF the senior class going on their own. weirrrddd.

okay enough about school, so i have met a pretty amazing boy. and he will remain nameless, but im pretty sure if we are good friends, ud know by now.

anyway, hes a great guy, and makes me feel incredible. everytime i talk to him. i just cant stop smiling. he has this effect on me i cant even describe.

but well theres not always a complete perfect ending to this story.

see, he lives over an hour away, and distance is quite the issue. some people say i shouldnt go through with it. and some say try and work it out. and as much as i want to. i dont know if i want to walk onto the next step and go for it. im pretty much hesitant to do anything that involves me taking risks with my heart. i dont know what to do. i really just wish i could be there or he could be here but i know that would never happen, and it makes me SO frustrated. so i have to deal with the decision to let it just go, and deal with the fact i may never know what could become of it, or take the plunge and take the risk of getting hurt because of distance. sigh.

yeah so enough about that.

my friend marc from ct's band is playing thursday at champ and im really excited.

i saw them back when they played with emanuel and they played a GREAT set. so im excited plus i have over 4 hugs in the deal, hehe.

this past weekend was crazzzzy man.

friday i went to see v for vendetta with ang & sheba- excellent movie, def a must see.

saturday party at leighs, wow oh wow. so much drunken madness. it pretty much consumed my life. idk what else to say about it. haha.

but yeah thats pretty much whats going on right at this point in time...

yeah..

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wow i havent wrote in this thing forever.

but not too much going on.

still tons of work and a lack of any kind of love life.

ya know how it isssss.

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okay so wow. its been a while eh?

well alot is going on now in my life actually.

so if you do care, i guess you can stick around to read about it.

my grandpa just recently just started living with me a few weeks ago.

hes been really sick and not doing well AT ALL. so we have been taking care of him, its rough, but hes family. my family has been really stressing lately and crazy. i dont know what to do. i guess ill just have to wait it out.

im still working like a bitch. like every day. its fucking ridiculous. but whatever. im getting money so i guess its not too bad.

iv been doing pretty good with my *love* life i guess. even tho theres not too much going on in it at the moment. but on the bright side my heart has mended itself from my past heart break. it was rough but i made it out great.

i am very interested in someone though, hes a great guy. and he makes me laugh, and he means alot to me. i just wish he knew im not like all the other girls out there who broke his heart. hes amazing and is perfect in every way. and im willing to wait as long as he needs to be with him. yeah i know im lame.

but im a stupid romantic and i cant help it. ah well.

off that subject. i have been applying for college this week, so we will see where that turns out. im just looking forward to getting out of highschool and putting it behind me. and start a new life. a life that isnt all about dating and rumors and stupid shit that wont even matter in a few years.

so adam clay just informed me that terminal broke up. and this makes me very sad. in many ways.

they were so talented. but its okay. ill still make love to their cd over n over again.

well thats enough out of me.

comment if any one reads this shit anymore. lol.

<3

im happy too.

im better off without you.

so much happier.

you never meant those words you said.

never kept any promises.

well im not phased.

becuz i live a better happier life.

so no, thank you :)

so new years was fun.

still am looking for the first kiss of the new year

and first love of the new year.

ah well.

theres plenty of time for that.

im probably going to a show tonight.

but we'll see whats going on.

i have to go to se my grandpa in the hospital tommorow.

hes barely holding on.

and it really sucks. i hope he is able to recover. sigh.

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